Inspired by a true story, Letters to God is a faith-based film that came out in 2010. It is about a young boy fighting cancer who finds strength and hope through writing out his prayers as letters to God. Those letters inspired hope and change in his family, friends and an entire community. The concept is so beautifully portrayed by a little boy who believed God to be intimately involved in his life. We decided to post another “letter to God” from someone who is struggling with her own “monsters under the bed.”
Today was really hard. I found myself crying most of the day. I wanted to tell you though that I’m not mad at you. I know that part of growing up is that I will have to go through lots of really hard things. I know sometimes you will be right next to me holding my hand, and other times I won’t be able to find you. I know that even though you are so much bigger than all the “monsters under my bed;” sometimes they do still come and I have to face them.
I wanted to tell you that I still love you even though my “monsters” came today. It’s not your fault. In fact, you helped me because you told me they might come and to stay strong. I tried so hard to stay strong for you. I wanted to make you proud of me. It seemed though, that the stronger I tried to be, the more I felt your heart break for me. Please don’t be sad for me. I know I will always be your little princess but I am also growing up and I promise I can carry more now. I know you are strong enough to make all the hard things stop, but I have learned from you that just because you have the power to make it stop, doesn’t mean you should.
Today, I just wanted you to know that I am thankful for all the times you made my bad days stop, but I also wanted to thank you for all the times you didn’t. I want to thank you for all the times you carried me across those scary waters, but I also thank you for all the times I had to learn how to swim through them. I want to thank you for all the times you have lighted my path, but I also thank you for all the times I had to walk in the dark. I thank you for all the times you have spoken to me, but I also thank you for all the times you didn’t say a word. I thank you for all the times it has been easy, but I also want to thank you during all the times I wanted to give up. I thank you today for all the times you have overflowed my plate, but I thank you even more for all the times that the crumbs seemed to be treasures. I thank you today for all the times I got to be first in line, but I thank you even more for all the times you asked me to be last.
So I guess if we both are going to cry, I’m just so thankful we get to do it together. I love you today because you loved me yesterday and because you love me now and because I know you will love me tomorrow and no amount of monsters will ever take that away.